Disrupted Thoughts

i have no thoughts

my emotions are disconnected
emotional amnesia
my relationship broken,
fragmented and unrecognisable

a night of no sleep,
no dreams, emptiness
what is happening?
where is the girl i met

paranoid, jealous and controlling,
insecure, spitting - crazy
nails gouging, fingers gripping my throat
who is this?

who am I?
This cant be happening to me
i love her
who am i supposed to be

these are my thoughts